envy and jeolousy

Sometimes I want to laugh like a crazy woman when somebody who challenged us and do stupid things that tarnish the image and honor him. Whatever it is, i`m so happy here looking for what else they will do ... It will run out of ideas to bring down others to raise themselves...sometimes i`m feel very sad thinking of my fate that not as pleasurable to others. With my status as the eldest of 12 siblings,,, it is hard not to mention when my lovely father's death in 2009.After the death of my father, I was promoted, I moved house more comfortable, getting the salary of an efficient, getting a new car...every day I remembered my late to the rush makes me glad to get along the days after days...Home from school Friday to go back to Kedah for taking the child that be chicken pox ( send Mira at the village on Saturday 2 weeks ago) .. up in Kedah, at 1.00 am ... on Saturday at 3:00 rush home because my patner needs to provides sambal nasi lemak from 2.00 pm to 7.00 pm ... I arrive at school at 9.30pm ... I take chili, eggs 60 eggs, anchovies and when I get home I need to cut and blend chili, boiled eggs and fried .... at the same I cut the anchovies to a price tag ... 5.ooam Sunday morning at school I rushed to the sauce and heat for laying out a table for sale. My brother came until 9 o'clock and at 12:00 I went out for a while send them to my house and my peer calculates the sales on that day .. back to school and help other partners to wash pots 3:00 belanga. When husband and children to come, I lead them to buy food, but everything is finished ... because they do not eat, I have to go back home and in a state tired I could not afford to drive.I`m sleep because I think my migraine had coming.But other people that jealousy was inciting big boss. big boss is not a good leader, even from external pious and good looks but did not realize he was able to slander me..If they are above me is a good and sincere people I do not see why they have not called them excellent for the position ... This is because of the rotten heart of others ... wrong simply agitated by his subordinates. .. he was not fair and coward leader